Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Wait Just a little more please !!!

Today is Tuesday, February 26, 2013and went in for my weekly check up.

Lately, I've been feeling soo much better about the pregnancy. I've been complimented about having a glow several times the last weekend and that's given me such a boost in confidence! :)
I've felt good enough to put a little make up on every here and there, and to dress up nice at least a tad. It's helped me embrace my pregnancy a little.

So today, I'm 38 weeks pregnant and waiting. As I stated in my past posts, I was told my baby girl might come out sooner. Well, today I'm not a bit of dilated and my cervix is a tad thinned. That's all. So by next week, if I'm not dilated, we have to start planning.


I don't want to plan !!!

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Post Pregnancy Moments of Thought

I look at other mommies and their blogs and their pregnancy photos and I just begin to envy them.
I feel like they're just so pretty. I'm so jealous! I never really learned to embrace my pregnancy. I felt shy and awkward, and sometimes still do.
I walked around on campus going to class and was stared at like some monkey in a circus act.
I'm not twelve, but I'm not finished with my career either.
I still don't know what I'm going to do once this baby is out in this world under my care.

Should I go and finish school? How long should I plan to be in school? What about Work? It's so hard to find a legit stay at home job of interest. I'm not a salesperson and I definitely can't host anything since I moved back to my mother's house for help with my soon to be born munchkin.

I  never spent hours in a mall at a maternity store. I haven't spent any time at a children's clothes store. I have loads and loads of clothing that was gifted to us. But I haven't had reality sink in just yet.

I haven't had a mommy feeling apart from movements from my peanut. I just still don't know what to believe. Or why. I just want to Gym again, work again, school again and have my nights out. I feel like I'm terrible for feeling this way.

Then I have my moments that I just can't wait to see her in my arms. I can't wait for  us to bake and finger paint and build forts and play with bubble in the bath. I cant wait to have my own little partner in crime. My mini-me. <3

I feel like I came into this world with a purpose, but have yet to leave any sort of tracks.
I feel like I have something I need to do.
But I just can't right now. I'm in my room living like an 18 year old arguing with siblings and feeling obliged to do my part as a renter in my mom's home.

I feel horrible for wanting to get away from it, just wanting to live with my little munchkin in our own home. I just need more space other than a room.
But in due time. I know God has a plan for us all and I know my time will come. For me and my peanut to grow and shine :)

Monday, February 11, 2013

The Waiting Game

So ever since I had my sonogram and was told I would most likely have this baby earlier on, I have been playing the waiting game. Every contraction I get, I like to think just maybe, that one time will be the contraction that sets me into labor.

But of course, that's just wishful thinking.

I am super anxious to meet her, but at the same time, I'm so tired of being pregnant. :0

Horrible I know :(

I will miss the kicks, and her weird elbows and knees kicking out of my tummy.

I will not miss the heartburn (which has returned with a vengeance), discomfort, insomnia, fatigue and nausea. I'm 36 weeks tomorrow, 9 months. And already, I have been doing the good old wives' tales for this baby to come as I was once told; sooner.

I bought a red raspberry leaf tea which I try to drink daily to tone my uterus. I have my husband massaging me every now and again as I've been told acupressure helps. I eat my spicy foods and try to walk as much as I can.   
But nothing.

I'm starting to believe she will come on her due date.
But fingers crossed !!!!

And in the meantime, here I am, sitting in bed with two capri suns and a fruit cups to keep her little big ol' tummy satisfied as she dances away in my tummy.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Baby delivery READY!

I am officially going on nine months in five days. The last examination we went to, we were informed that my baby was measuring ahead. SO I expect her to pop any day now.

I was diagnosed with Anemia couple months back so I've been on this Iron pill. Well, I'm supposed to be on it, but I just tend to forget to take it often "/ I'm wondering if that will affect my labor or birth for any reason?

I am completely tired at this point. And sleep DOESN'T come easy. I used to love the sound of my husband's snoring. It made me fall right asleep. Now, I can't help but to get cranky and frustrated.

My eating has increased, like doubled!! I wake up starving!!!! I snack all day and still ever get that full feeling. It's crazy!!!

I noticed new stretch marks on my tummy. No bueno. I thoughtI only has a few on my sides right above my hips. I guess genetics doesn't explain it, my mom has not one stretch mark and she popped six kids!!!

I have no strength, I can barely walk without it being painful for me. I'm just completely done with this pregnancy, I want her to support me and just pop right out, and say "There mommy. I'm here and I cooperated!" Hahha ! :)